There’s a couple of things on my mind and I honestly cannot decide which one to blog about, so I’ll just have to blog about both! Yes, I know there’s still a W&D recap, but, that will just have to wait a little bit longer.
To Half Marathon or Not To Half Marathon
I realize this won’t make much sense without knowing about my Wine & Dine experience, but I feel a need to do another half marathon…and soon. I would LOVE to do a Disney one (am I crazy enough to register for the WDW Half through a charity?). My next scheduled race is the Glass Slipper Challenge in February (10K on Saturday, 1/2 marathon on Sunday in WDW). I want to PR at the Princess Half, but I feel like I need to get another half marathon in before that to work on and gauge my speed.
There are a few local ones in NY, before then, but I’m honestly a little scared to register for them. The first one up is the Frozen Bonzai Half Marathon (no, I don’t understand the name). It’s in about 2+ weeks and involves 2 laps around Central Park. Reasons I’m terrified to sign up for this race.
1 – There is a 3 hour cap. Don’t get me wrong. It’s not that I’m worried it will take me more than 3 hours, it’s just something about having a shorter time cushion that might make me a little more paranoid. It probably also has something to do with this:
2 – The race is capped at 1200 runners. I don’t think I have ever done a race that small. I think I hear small race and I think competitive runners. And I am NOT fast enough to be considered competitive. Don’t get me wrong, I’m a LOT faster than I used to be, but I am no where near as fast as I feel like the people in a 1200 person race are.
3 – It’s (essentially) 2 laps in Central Park. After the Women’s Fitness Half Marathon, I swore that I would never do a race that involved 2 laps in Central Park with the Hills of Doom! …even though that’s where my current PR is.
4 – It’s in December. And it’s getting cold. REALLY cold. I’ve done training runs outside in the cold before, but I honestly have no idea how to (or how I would do) in a race this cold. Yes I know this is a lame reason, but its still a reason.
5 – I’ve never signed up for a race without enough time to “train” for it. 2+ weeks. 2 really by the time I get a run in. Is that really even feasible?
I don’t know…maybe I should just find another race. I wish Queens had more than 1 half marathon. It would be so easy to roll out of bed and be at the starting line within 1/2 an hour.
I’ve reached a breaking point for various reasons recently. But specifically, I’ve reached a breaking point with people. I’m no longer going to sit by and let people walk all over me anymore. OK. That’s a lie. But these 2 specific people I’m not.
The first one is my trainer. Yeah, the one I quit. He’s still in the picture because he still owes me. Basically, I’m having issues with him in terms of the 2 sessions I have remaining with him. Now, when I quit the training program at the gym, I never went into specifics as to all the reasons I was dropping the training program…specifically that my trainer is extremely unprofessional who is always late when he doesn’t cancel on me at the last second. I’ve decided, that should my trainer want to continue to screw with me, I’ll go back to the gym and tell them the truth. Including his shady practices of scheduling sessions with me while I was on my honeymoon so that he didn’t have to wait until I got back to get paid.
Does it seem extreme that I could be possibly costing a man his job because of the stress and issues he’s causing me? Of course it does. Which is why I haven’t done it yet and I’m giving him one more chance to do the right thing. However, I’m tired of giving him chances. I have hit my breaking point. I actually hit my breaking point with him months ago and am now finally going to be strong enough to do something about it. Man I hate feeling like a bitch (excuse my language).
The other person I’ve hit a breaking point with? One of my attorneys. I work for 4 of them. That’s more than any other paralegal at my office (have I ever mentioned that I’m a paralegal?). Once upon a time, I used to have a really good relationship with this attorney. But lately, for the past several months actually, the relationship has changed. I don’t know what happened, but I can’t joke with her any more. It’s honestly almost impossible to talk to her any more. And well, she’s gotten in the habit of talking down to me. Like because I don’t have a law degree, she’s better than I am. That I am inferior to her. News flash, this is not true. It’s not so much what she says to me that’s offensive, its how she says it. My other 3 attorneys “tell” me what do to, or they’ll explain things to me so I learn, but never once in the manner they do it, do they make me feel insignificant or “less” than they are. She does. She didn’t used to (although there was this once incident about a year ago.) It’s gotten overboard now, where it’s like every time we talk she makes me feel that way. My boss (who is NOT this atty, despite how she acts), knows that I am overwhelmed and keep asking what she can take away to help. I’ve never suggested this atty or her caseload because its something new, and I like learning new things, its how I grow, but I can’t keep working with her. So tomorrow, I’m going into my boss’ office and asking to take away those files from me. I will, of course, do it in a professional manner that doesn’t involve throwing her under the bus, but I’m going to stand up for myself and say something…which is pretty new for me.
Thus endeth my angry rant. I try and stay away from non-running/training topics, but this has just been irking me and I had to let it out somewhere…